Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
— 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (via insomniacdiaries)
I start the conversations because I care, because I’ve given up on my pride and the only thing that I ever look forward to is talking to you, whether that feeling is reciprocated or not. It’s me giving up, every single day.
lol youre back and it hurts more
wow haha I miss you so much.
I think it’s good to talk. not just talk. but discuss. get honest and real with each other and say whats directly on your mind, not even just “oh it’s been a bad day, i say im fine, but surprise surprise i’m actually super depressed.” because i don’t think that’s enough. i want to discuss and find out solutions, to discuss and just support each other through words of understanding. that’s what i really want right now. i want to be real with someone. the last time, i became honest, the last time, i threw out all my pride and fear and told someone how i REALLY thought about certain things, wow, how refreshing and real was that; I thought I really saw change there, waiting for me in the future.
And I want that feeling again, the feeling that someone understands, where you just ugh idk examine and discuss…lol
I realize I like words a lot lol, more than just finding posts on tumblrs that say what’s on my mind, I wanna say it myself; it’s my mind, those posts might be similar but they’ll never be exactly the same.
Well right now, I’m more than disappointed in myself. I realize what I lack the most, an it’s responsibility. I can’t take responsibility for my own actions, let alone actions that affect others. And I can’t take responsibility to change my old habits. I don’t really mean just homework, although that needs a lot of improvement as well, but just overall self-maintaining, timeliness, deadlines, people, relationships. i’m just a lazy piece of shit..=/
i’m sick of brooding around, thinking i’m the most miserable person in the world, when i’m obviously not. and yet I need to be cautious, i can’t just say ima take control over my own life now and live proactively…because that’s not how it works either.
God. once again, God’s all I need. And i need Him right now, so so badly. And maybe a friend who’s willing to get real with me as well and talk about things that actually matter might help a little too haha
but for now, I guess I’m left with Tumblr.
scrolling down your Facebook news feed..
dont care
dont care
dont care
you’re*
dont care
dont care
your life is just so fucking bad isn’t it?
oh you’re single, once again
dont care
song lyrics, how original
dont care
dont care
you’re like 10, no you’re not ‘getting smashed’
dont care
dont care
dont care
NOW BACK TO TUMBLR
omg. cutest thing of my life
Because He lives
I can face tomorrow
Because He lives
All fear is Gone
Because I know
He holds the future
And life is worth the living
Just because He lives
